welcome back!

so it's been a long time but i need a place to store my semi negative energies if you will.

tonight somewhere in between write up 27 (translate bullshit assignment infinity) for medical school i played the little mental exercise of "what could have been done with all this time I spent jumping through medical school hoops like a goddamn feral lemming?"

I have played this exercise multiple times in the past, and it is always disheartening.

1) Become an excellent rock skipper.

2) Mastered ultimate frisbee.

3) Designed blue sprints for a super green and happy for the environment house.

4) Probably learned at least 2 year's of mandarin or arabic if I was feeling particularly ambitious, enterprising if you will with a magic hat in hand.

5) Actually learned more medicine.

And the list goes on. What am I doing here? Sitting in this absolute vacuum. Three years of my life down the drain in addition to the other kilos of time I spent getting here.